I felt unwell today. not because of the physical thing, but the mental one. i know the new year is coming, as well as my DAME 8 exam and the dissertation deadline. it's really silly to talk about these disgusting thing during such an important day. people are gathering with their family, enjoying the delicious dishes, so do i. but my heart is absent. it fly away, landing on a place where i totally have no idea.

my family is really sweet. we fully filled our home with dozens of lanterns, flowers and decorations. and now they are watching TV, even though the show i thought was really boring and scaring... i close myself indoor, preferring to review my DAMN 8. however, i was strucke by the mistakes.

the happiness and laughter outside made me more frustrating. how could it be...i know it's not the time i review my mess. but i still rebelled my heart, which was sth. jessica always did. sigh...what can i do to be more smarter?? or have a good and unique personality?? in a moment, i don't want to be what i am now.

it is the most painful spring festival i need to suffer...